This hit home hard for me today

As we sat at my moms today on christmas eve and as Brakken who will be 18 months tomorrow threw a fit over ever little thing drove me to the point of wanting to pull my hair out and bawl my eyes out i thought i have got to do something before i go insane so i got on my blog and just started flipping threw some blogs I came to one I had not looked at for months and for some reason I had a feeling in the pit of my stomach that said click on it... So i clicked on it and the post that appeared truely was sent from my heavenly father he knew i was going crazy and was about to have a mental break down as I read through the post I broke down it was everything I was feeling and didnt know how to say I want to share it with you all you mommys who want to lock yourself in the bathroom for five minutes just for a moment to yourself.... HERE IT IS I just love this...... I hope I can look at things this way......
"How do you think of your children? On any given day, would you say your children are a blessing or a burden? Here is a challenge to you…How are you?”…“How is the baby?”…“How are your kids?”… We all hear these questions every day. Do you know a mom who always answers something like this: “Well, I haven’t killed my 2-year-old yet, so I guess that’s good.” Or, “I’m just exhausted,” or, “Things are absolutely crazy – I am so stressed out!”Maybe that frazzled, haggard, bewildered mommy is someone you know. Maybe it’s you. I know I’ve been there. Here is my question to you today… are we bearing our blessings as burdens? Those babies that we dreamt of and prayed for, that we had so much fun choosing names for, that we counted the days to meet… are they burdens to us now? Those homes that we were ecstatic to move into… are they burdens now? That husband that we couldn’t live without, that we picked out the wedding dress for, that we cried and ached and waited by the phone for… is he a burden now? That job you needed, you wanted and prayed for, that provides food and clothing for your family… is it a burden now?Sometimes it seems to me like a mantle we as moms must carry. We must be tired, we must be stressed out; we must be harried and frazzled, we must be lucky just to make it through the day. Are we bearing our blessings as burdens? Are we tired? Absolutely.As moms, we know about the 2 a.m. feedings, the nightmares, the wet beds, the midnight curfews. Do things get a little stressful between PTA meetings, dance class, the T-ball game, and dinner on the table at 6? Sure they do. Are husbands always a joy when they get home from work? No way. Is scrubbing the potty, doing the laundry, and cleaning the high chair tray the greatest thrill we’ve ever known? Of course not.So how do we look past the burdens and see the blessings of our families and our homes? Do you know any women who would give anything to have a baby to nurse at 2 a.m.? Anyone who would love to have those clothes we are sick of washing, or that house we just can’t keep clean. Do you know any women whose husbands aren’t coming home?I challenge you to joy, to smile, to persevere. I challenge you to bear your burdens as blessings and watch as they multiply. And the next time someone asks you how you are, throw off that identity of stressed out, frazzled mommy, find your smile and answer, “I am blessed!” When I got done reading this I just felt so mad at myself for thinking for one minute to myself... THIS KID IS DRIVING ME NUTS... Yes i as a mother have my moments but I do love my little baby who is growing so fast and I know when I have a rough day this is something I will always keep and can always come back to